The truth he cannot admit
The truth is painful and more heartbreaking than a million other scenerios that ran throu my head. He left for a girl at work (says he didnt start seeing here till 4 days after he left and claims the reasons he give me are the truth) She has a husband and 3 kids she left her husband the same night.(what a coincedednce) The same girl he had to be seperated from at work cuz the were goofing off to much. This does not happen in 4 days . He said like always I only believe what I want to believe. But the bottom line is this he stopped giving us a chance , He stopped loving me, he threw our life away(same life I fought tooth and nail to preserve) because of her. Even worse she does drugs (takes one to know one) He even told me a million times he thought she was a tweak (meth user). I yelled at him for that and he didnt even deny she was a user he told me who was I to say anything . I am however clean, and these are my children. all of a sudden it doesn't matter the type of people they are around. Hes lost his mind , he's lost all morality and I fucking hate him. So now he don't have to worry about me anymore.I told him he was not allowed to bring her around them. He asked me who I thought I was to dictate these things. Their Mother, thier protecter and the only sane parent they have left . I did something wrong thou. I did. I came back in the house after we fought and the kids started yelling at me about what I did to daddy and I couldn't take it I broke. I yelled back "WHAT DID I DO TO DADDY, TRY WHAT DID DADDY DO TO ME, He's the one who left and is with another woman." I can't take this back , I can't take nothing I said yesterday to him back. How can I fix this ? He smiled when I told him I knew who he was with, smug motherfucker, he said how did you find out? Plus he drew out 60 bucks and his check wasnt even enuff to pay his truck payment cuz he had vacation days which he is still lying about not having cuz he could have been with his kids while I worked . Now either my car payment or his truck payment is going to bounce and I drew my car payment out of my savings account from work. FUCKER!!!! If my car payment bounces because of him #$^^&**()_*!@#$@$%^&(*()*(*&$#!@#$%^&*) is all I have to say. WHAT A MESS !!!